A half of 2021

Nights and days passed.
People came to the world, and some just left the world.
January became July, we are running this far to a place we hope we could be safe.
Sad to say, we still stuck at the moment a year ago, even worse than a year ago.
 
For me, yesterday felt like a dream.
A dream that I always wanted to keep, since there were a lot of people go yesterday.
The fun we had remains in a piece of memory.  

Tomorrow is the scariest thing to face.
Nobody knows who's gonna survive, who's gonna finish the race.
The next day is unpredictable and always be.  

It is such a strange feeling for me, kind of mixing up my emotion.
Looking at people updating coffins covered by plastics on their social media,
Making an online farewell through phone to their funeral,
Hearing ambulances sirens going back and forth,
Everything is so unbelievable these days.
 
In the late-night, I was alone and listening to the night sky.
I heard nothing in my neighborhood.
It was quiet and peaceful.
It seemed like mother nature doesn't care for whatever happens with humans.
Every second, minute, hour, day, week, month, and year keep going as the Earth rotates on its axis.
The Sun keeps coming from the east and sets in the west.

And I am so jealous of what the non-human beings have.
They could live without thinking about the pandemic that hit all of the people.

I miss those days, even though not really a good day, but at least we were not frightened every single day to the threats. 

I miss those days when people could talk without having mask, 

I miss those days before the Covid-19. 

I hope to wake up from this nightmare shortly.  

 

 

 

Gitta, 07.07.21

Stop being a teacher.

 Hiii there... 

Last time I checked, I update this blog in May 2020. It was a year ago. 

What happens to the world after a year?
 

Well, I myself looking back to May 2020, it seemed so desperate and sad. Everyone were still crazy about life, especially because of the pandemic. Well, a year later, the pandemic is still around. We live side by side with the virus. It is so freaking weird, lol. 

 What can I say? We are the ones who still live in this world must be so grateful for everything, The covid19 virus didn't choose which one who it is going to affect it, but sure, randomly, for people who may not follow the health protocol, or else, unconsciously just affected. 

A lot of people in the world got their vaccines, mine too. I got 2 shots already. It was SINOVAC. 

Idk, how long it could last to make my body against the covid19, but I just simply follow the health protocol and never go out side the crowded places. 

Well well well.. The world are getting better, I may say. I do have hopes that this pandemic could be more friendly to us. It is perhaps impossible to remove it from the Earth, but at least people are safe, and they are not going to die if they got affected. 

Sooo, what about me??

If I put the title, 'Everything has changed', it must be whole thing is changing. hahaha

Yes, indeed! 

My life in this year, 2021, is totally changed. Something I've never expected and imagined, it is now here.

Well, I stop becoming a teacher! That sounds so saaaaaddddddd! I cried a lot like a baby! 

I still remembered, on August, 1st  2016, it was  my first day of school. It was my first job after I graduated from college. And I had no idea how the world worked. Then, I ended up in a school, in International School in Jakarta. I felt so happy and excited every single day. 

I was with the primary 1 student, and they were so funny and cute and always said unexpected words. 

I missed those babies :(((

Well, the next year, I was with primary 2, then primary 1, and the last 2 years I was in primary 2. 

I  felt so loved around the kids. I realize that after their moms and dads, they could love their homeroom teachers so much, because who else they could trust and feeling safe for the whole day? 

I still remember when I found my kids crying or feeling sad, or forgot to bring their lunch, I approached them and persuade them that "it is all okay". And they listened to me! 

 

I have a lot of things to say but I'm not in a good mood today. 

Till next time then.... 

Life must go on, with or without COVID-19.

It's May, 30th 2020.

I have been accompanying my students during this study at home for almost 3 months. I only have 4 days remaining to be with them in this Home Learning during this pandemic situation.
There is a mixed up feeling inside my head. It is so sad to realize that I won't be with them anymore, because, yeah perhaps, I will have another different group of kids. For me, teaching every kid is fine actually. There is no such a big deal.
But if you are a teacher, you will understand how sad I am every time the end year is coming.
You know, for a year we have put our heart together and love each other, 20 students, and 1 my co-teacher. We share love and story. The hardest part is the promotion day, when they about to be promoted to the next grade.

It's been 4 year being here, and I have  cried for 3 times every promotion day, well again, they about to go to the next grade. Hahaha so funny. In the last 3 years, since 2016-2019, it was going smoothly  like usual, but now? It seems like every hour of our meeting has been stolen away :(
However, even though every hour has been stolen away due to this covid-19, but the school must go on., with ot without Covid-19.



See you again, P2D students.
Lots of love from me.

♥

I am sorry for your loss during this pandemic.

I deeply feel sorry for everyone who lose the loved ones during this pandemic covid-19.

No words can describe how much you love them, but it is the time to let them go.
I can feel how devastating you are by losing them. In addition, during this social distancing, it is hard to visit the funereal like in the regular days. But hopefully, God will help you to pass this difficult time.

with lots of loves.

♥

A doughnut?

How could a grown up person like me, a teacher, a post graduate person like me, was being taught by my own students?

Well, being a teacher doesn't mean I teach all the time.
The art of being a teacher is that I am also being taught by students.
I have learned a lot of things that I never expected before.

Today, when I preached my students about the devotion that had held through online meeting.

A doughnut, a common doughnut.
If you find a doughnut, you may wonder, lot of doughnuts have a missing piece in the middle of the body. Well, if a doughnut represents as a goal of life, then the hole represents some imperfections of the goal itself.

What is the point of telling to second grader students about the goal and the imperfection?
We need to be told what's the point of living since we are kid, very young. So in the near future, we have complete picture of what we are gonna do. As young children, they must be expecting something if they about to be growing up. But it is very sad if grown up people only tell them about "what is your goal. keep pursuing your goal. do not give up on your goals" and whatsoever.

You know what, you forget to tell them "It is okay you fail in reaching your goal, you can try again." That is a better idea for a wise man.

Young children have been desperate for getting bad score or not being a top student in school. Once they turn home, they will be so upset telling that they failed to be the best one. And the crazy part is, some parents punish their kids for not being the best. That is so insane.

back to the doughnut. Kids should know that the big round of doughnut represents their dream, hopes, and goals. And a small hole represent their failure, their mistake or any other imperfection forms. So when they want to pursue their dream, it is okay to have mistake of failure.


And what makes me so special with this story like I said earlier?

In this covid-19 situation, I must be so ungrateful of whatever I have, or I maybe keep complaining about everything. The doughnut is not only telling me about the failure while getting a dream, but also always having an attitude of gratitude in any kind of situation. Do not focus on th missing point, or failure or the missing part or the saddest part because the whole body of the doughnut is still wide and a lot to be thankful. It is only a small hole, it is not a whole doughnut has hole. :)

It is so funny, when I was reminded my students, then I remind by myself either.


Always be thankful

♥

Life is bad?

Why is life that bad?

I was wondering of my life, then I have finally discovered.
Well, actually it depends on how you see it. 


If you are in the middle of the crowded street, with bunch of people are yelling and screaming and putting their middle fingers everywhere, that's how you see the bad life.
But try to find a tall building around that street, go to the top of the building and you may see the landscape that you don't see when you are on the ground. In addition, you also don't see that crowded with the screaming and yelling and middle fingers. 

Are you out of that problem?
You are still around that problem, but you are looking at another perspective of the problem from different side. And it is surprising that from other perspective, you may find peace and calm. It doesn't matter where you are, as long as you are finding a good way of looking some problems, you must think that there is always a way out. 

What happens to school during the COVID-19

Hello there, 

It has been May. The world is running along with Covid-19 for almost 5 months. Then I'd like to see some memes spread around the socmed saying that: 

CONGRATULATION!! 

YOU SUCCESSFULLY MADE IT TO THE END OF APRIL. WELCOME TO LEVEL 5 OF JUMANJI. 

It is kind of saddddd but it is trueeee. As we know the movie, Jumanji, something like you need to unlock several level with different quests, and you need to be alive and survived from all the treats. 

Each level won't be easy, but harder. Yeahh, the world is facing this kind of situation. 

Some people who are being alive is like a blessing. I myself facing some of friends' relatives whose getting this covid and then died. But some of them are still under the treatment.  Well with or withour covid, life must go on, right? 

What about the other things? Office life? Market life? Social life? 

The world has committed to a physical distancing. It is a good way to be living separately with our toxic enemy, isn't it? Hahahaha

Well, some of the sectors must have been stopped. However, some still run as usual. Take a look at my job. My job is teaching. We can teach in everywhere we go. Inside or outside the school. IF the school is closed, learning is still running, apparently. As it is stated "Once you stop learning, you start dying" - Albert Einstein. 

It is not a bad decision for me since I like to teach. I like talking and I like giving speech, It is a good combination to be a qualified teacher. Hahahaha Yet, it is not enough! Apart of having knowledge and skill to speak, having sophisticated skill in technology is absolutely needed for teachers at the moment.

In a short period, let say one week, I have explored and signed up more than 10 applications for Online Teaching and Learning Platform. I also have discovered some links, websites and ideas to give students happy time during this online meeting. Anyway, I teach 2nd grader. Can you even imagine that? 

What was I doing when I was a 2nd grader?

Memorizing multiplication until table 10 and having my cursive writing , that was the coolest thing I have ever made in Primary 2. But now? 2nd grader? 

Having a good time saying hello to their friends and teachers through virtual meeting and submitting some tasks through online platform as well. 

It would be something like soooo memorable for me and them (but please, only once in a life time okay). And I am so happy to accept that. Yesss I am so proud being a teacher and also a lecturer in the same time that I can't stop entertaining them with knowledge (even if there must be limited capacity for me to deliver the lesson, since everything depends on the internet connection, LOL) BUT I must be thankful for God really gives us this covid 19 where the technology has been developed around the globe especially in my country. 

What if, there is no internet? No live streaming? No virtual meeting? No Netflix and cable TV? No YouTube? No Socmed? No online shopping? No online delivery? OMG! We must be in the middle of great devastation. NO WiFi? Oh noooooo!!!

Sooo, "Gratefulness" is a keyword to be survived in this miserable time, since some people out there can't own everything I have right now, at least for settling and having some human basic needs. 

Thank God for everything, even if in this trouble time, I still believe You are here to save me and everyone. May God bless Indonesia, May God heal the world.