Been looking for the perfect guy, but.. there will never exist.

I have been looking for a perfect man who will spend the rest of his time with me... but sad to say that they are not even existed. HUFT.

I'm telling you, what if you have a man who....

-will grow old together with Christ

-loves God as he would love his wife

- never lie to his wife

-good mental & spiritual, being afraid of God, stay faithful to God, keep praying everyday, reading Bible everyday

-good physical, such as do daily exercise, no smoking, having healthy food

- respect to his wife's family, relatives

- not being selfish, not having high tempered, not having bad habit, such as drugs or drunk

-love the Children, taking care of children, be bare of Children, stay calm while dealing with children

-Good role model as a Father

-etc.

SHIT. These are only on my imagination. These men are not even created since Adam and Eve were living. So wake up ladies, your and my dream man will never be coming perfectly true. 

Even if we try our best so hard to change our habit to be a better person.. (they said)... it is still.. never be coming true. 

I've been meeting someone, recently, a man, somebody had introduced me this guy. I thought he was really perfect. Yes. He was really kind, generous, humble, and... perfect. Almost close to these kind of characteristics.. yet.. I don't know.. I found that he was actually similar like other man with shit personality..  Damn!

Have you?

    "Have you ever missed someone who wasn't existed in your life anymore?"

and when it comes, you are totally SUCK!  

Getting back after a long recovery.... yes very long recovery-healing time!

Hi there, what's up?

I'd been busy all these days. Busy with college and works stuffs. Of course college and work, nothing else. Ha ha ha...

No getting involved in any kind confusing relationship (for now) FOR I AM SO MUCH ENJOYING MY SINGLE TIME AS FUCK! DAMNLOL I mean it btw.

Anyway, talking about single, I am serious, I've never been in this situation where I really enjoy myself with my own companion. YES, damnhell! I am with nobody! :)
Before, I was really scared of being alone, and it was really frightened, you know!!

For I so much realize when I, later on, get married, establish a fucking family, I WILL NEVER BE SINGLE anymore.

Well. In your Single timem you can do everything you want without someone overreacted looking for you many times, or maybe going crazy because you need to check your fucking phone for every 5 minutes, or give your precious rest time to hang around with your lover, even you can't do some worthy things, such as SLEEPING! LOL

Overall, I gave thank to God, it is because of Him I can pass through that hard times. I can do my recovery and healing "inner healing" actually. I almost took 1 year.

On the last December, 2016, I found myself throwing back of my last Dec 2015, some remindings which brought me to remember everything. BUT it was really helpful because I realize from Dec 2015 I actually needed "break up" with the "him" but it happened in the last Jan 2016. OMG lol

Well my story looks so damn curcol and complex..... complicated... and weird.

In the end, Thank God, you already make my life so much beautiful. YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO CHEER MY LIFE UP. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH :) 😀😊💓