Life is bad?

Why is life that bad?

I was wondering of my life, then I have finally discovered.
Well, actually it depends on how you see it. 


If you are in the middle of the crowded street, with bunch of people are yelling and screaming and putting their middle fingers everywhere, that's how you see the bad life.
But try to find a tall building around that street, go to the top of the building and you may see the landscape that you don't see when you are on the ground. In addition, you also don't see that crowded with the screaming and yelling and middle fingers. 

Are you out of that problem?
You are still around that problem, but you are looking at another perspective of the problem from different side. And it is surprising that from other perspective, you may find peace and calm. It doesn't matter where you are, as long as you are finding a good way of looking some problems, you must think that there is always a way out. 

What happens to school during the COVID-19

Hello there, 

It has been May. The world is running along with Covid-19 for almost 5 months. Then I'd like to see some memes spread around the socmed saying that: 

CONGRATULATION!! 

YOU SUCCESSFULLY MADE IT TO THE END OF APRIL. WELCOME TO LEVEL 5 OF JUMANJI. 

It is kind of saddddd but it is trueeee. As we know the movie, Jumanji, something like you need to unlock several level with different quests, and you need to be alive and survived from all the treats. 

Each level won't be easy, but harder. Yeahh, the world is facing this kind of situation. 

Some people who are being alive is like a blessing. I myself facing some of friends' relatives whose getting this covid and then died. But some of them are still under the treatment.  Well with or withour covid, life must go on, right? 

What about the other things? Office life? Market life? Social life? 

The world has committed to a physical distancing. It is a good way to be living separately with our toxic enemy, isn't it? Hahahaha

Well, some of the sectors must have been stopped. However, some still run as usual. Take a look at my job. My job is teaching. We can teach in everywhere we go. Inside or outside the school. IF the school is closed, learning is still running, apparently. As it is stated "Once you stop learning, you start dying" - Albert Einstein. 

It is not a bad decision for me since I like to teach. I like talking and I like giving speech, It is a good combination to be a qualified teacher. Hahahaha Yet, it is not enough! Apart of having knowledge and skill to speak, having sophisticated skill in technology is absolutely needed for teachers at the moment.

In a short period, let say one week, I have explored and signed up more than 10 applications for Online Teaching and Learning Platform. I also have discovered some links, websites and ideas to give students happy time during this online meeting. Anyway, I teach 2nd grader. Can you even imagine that? 

What was I doing when I was a 2nd grader?

Memorizing multiplication until table 10 and having my cursive writing , that was the coolest thing I have ever made in Primary 2. But now? 2nd grader? 

Having a good time saying hello to their friends and teachers through virtual meeting and submitting some tasks through online platform as well. 

It would be something like soooo memorable for me and them (but please, only once in a life time okay). And I am so happy to accept that. Yesss I am so proud being a teacher and also a lecturer in the same time that I can't stop entertaining them with knowledge (even if there must be limited capacity for me to deliver the lesson, since everything depends on the internet connection, LOL) BUT I must be thankful for God really gives us this covid 19 where the technology has been developed around the globe especially in my country. 

What if, there is no internet? No live streaming? No virtual meeting? No Netflix and cable TV? No YouTube? No Socmed? No online shopping? No online delivery? OMG! We must be in the middle of great devastation. NO WiFi? Oh noooooo!!!

Sooo, "Gratefulness" is a keyword to be survived in this miserable time, since some people out there can't own everything I have right now, at least for settling and having some human basic needs. 

Thank God for everything, even if in this trouble time, I still believe You are here to save me and everyone. May God bless Indonesia, May God heal the world. 

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Haiiii... It's been awhile...

March, 25th 2020.

I haven't written anything here.
What's going on with the world?
It's so sad here. Covid-19 is everywhere. It is a pandemic that hit all around the world.
We are so scared. Everyone is frightened and afraid of that disease.
Me? Actually me, too.

What I have seen through this,
Is it because God mad at us?
Or because God misses us?

We are too busy with ourselves to earn money, to have life with our work and family and friends. In certain time, we needed a quiet time with Him, to pray and worship Him.
What does it feel being sick with the corona?
I can't even imagine it. But happened in Indonesia is there are more than 790 people got infected to this virus.


Every fear needs to be thrown away by our pray, not by our money that makes us panic buying


In the end of the day,

All hands will raise to God, Jesus Christ.
Every single person with their mouth will shout to the Lord, to seek forgiveness and mercy.
Every eye will see Your Greatness over this world.
Since we need Jesus more than anything in this world.

God bless Indonesia, God bless the world. :)

One more time

what is there is a "one more time" chance for me crossing your mind?
what if there is an opportunity to me, to talk to you like the first time?
what if there would be me and you as a couple of stranger meeting and say hello?
what if everything can be turned like in the first place?
what would you say?
what would I say?

there is always a time for me to think, if I could hold your hand for one more time, I would never release it. Never. Since holding your hand is like giving my breath back in my miserable nightmare.
yup..  it seems like..
there is something that always brings me back to you...

If I had a chance to be in that moment again, I would say "hello" and tell "see you when I see you"

Which means, I would never expect another meeting to see you.

huft.

dream.

What if you meet someone who ain't existed anymore in your life? I mean, I  ain't talking about death, it is about somebody who already left you and then you met again?

Me? I didn’t. But I met him (after he left) twice in my dream. It was like.... so real. How come I can see his smile so real. He cant stop smiling while talking. I didn't hear anything from him, I just enjoyed mute-talking with him. How was the end? Again. It was like no saying goodbye. The dream stopped, and I woke up.

Was it something like a sign? Or was it just a dream? I thought, it was just a dream. Well, I don’t expect to meet him anymore. Please. 


(This text was originally written on July, 30th 2017. LOL. Then I saved to draft. OMG. LOLOLOLOL. THAT WAS WHY I HAD A DREAM OF MEETING HIM TWICE..... YEAH... I MET HIM FOR THE LAST TIME IN THE LAST YEAR.... TWICE. LOL. OMG, I decided to post this.) 

meeting(s).. for the very last time.

On the last Dec 30th 2017 was my unexpected time ever.. that was surprising me for sure.

The place was the the first place we met in 2012. I dunno why, I was recalling the very first moment after the Sunday service finished. I walked out, he walked out. He stood in front of the door while I was standing right in front of him around 2 meters, we were not introducing each other since there were so many people around us. But that moment led me to recognize his face until I met him for the next step.

Well, On the Dec 30, I was walking in to attend the Christmas celebration which actually HE WAS THERE! SHIT! WHAT THE.....

There was an unexpected moment, dude!

I freeze for a second, then we shake hand for... it was like for the first time as two strangers (again) met for (also) the very first time.

Since January 2016, I had expected to have the last meeting with him, but I never had even one single chance. I had prayed to God, I really wanted to meet him for the very last time, tough I had no feeling to him anymore.

On the last day of 2017, Dec 31st 2017, was the very last time I met him in the church. I said to God "That was more than enough, God. thank you." Two meetings for the very last chance was really unexpected and........weird.